Day 4 Friday 23/07/2004

This morning i didn’t feel very good or positive. I was tired from being awake most of the night with the bugs every where. You could here them crawling. Laid in my bed i felt so alone and i didn’t know where i was going to fit in in this group of people. I felt very tearful and cried alot especially after team meeting this morning. Every one was great they all encouraged me. I took my self to our room and prayed. The Lord encouraged my with this scripture (Corinthians 13)

1 Corinthians 13 New International Version

13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

After spending this time with the Lord, i felt better. Andy and myself had been put on shopping duty. Ben arrived and introduced us to his wife Magda they were to be our guides while out shopping. Magda was learning English and she interpreted for us.

Me with Ben and Magda

My first trip in to Calarasi didn’t really help they way i was feeling.Before we could visit the shops we needed to exchange some currency. While at the exchange this small girl came up to me asking for food and drink, she looked very poor. Her clothes were torn and dirty her hair was so matted up. I just wanted to take her home and clean and feed her. Ben came over and spoke in Romanian to her and she went on her way. He told us that this would be her job to go out begging and she would be aloud to return home until she received money and food. I felt so overwhelmed it took all my strength to hold back the tears. I so wanted to go after that young girl and give her what she needed. Then again after going to the exchange we saw a couple with a small child. someone had dropped an ice cream on the street and they sent her over to pick up the ice-cream and ate it. I’d never seen any thing like this.They were so poor, their hair was all mattered up they smelt awful, their hand and feet were black they had huge holes in their shoes. Their clothes were all torn and dirty. Again i prayed in my mind Lord please help me i don’t know if i can do this. Look at these poor people what can i do to help them? Only you Lord can help. Give me strength, wisdom and courage to do what you will me to do and help me learn from this trip. As all this is making me feeling extremely sad.

Driving here in Romania, Well what can i say every thing i was being taught in England went right out of the window. Its a case of put your foot down and honk your horn if any one gets in your way. I’m glad i wasn’t driving. Ben was very good at dodging people, children, bikes, horse and cart and wild dogs. None of them had any road sense. Yes its a real experience travelling over here.

Once the shopping was completed we returned to the lodgings and relaxed for a while by now the temperature was so intense and we were still trying to acclimatise to it. A few of our team were feeling ill because of the heat and so we all prayed laying hands on them After having food and resting we decided to go on a prayer walk around our lodgings. We prayed that the Lord would send down his blessings on Calarasi and its people. Before we knew it it was almost time for our evening meal (where did the time go)

Calarasi street life
Street in Calarasi

This evening we attended Bethany church for worship and to meet with some of the others we were to be working along side of for the next few weeks. We were all never nervous. knowing that we were expected to stand up in front of the church and speak. encouraging our brothers and sisters and telling them about our selves and how God had brought here. When i was handed the Camera i thought Yes! that means i didn’t have to get up and talk. how wrong was I. While we were singing and praising i saw what i can only describe as something like fire floating around the room and i herd the Lord say to me “My spirit is here” When it was my turn to speak i prayed Lord help me fill my mouth with your words, as i cant do this with out you. I then walked to the front of the church and the words just flowed out of my mouth to the point i forgot to stop for my words to be translated.

Telling my story

Forgetting to stop talking.

Thank you Lord!

After all of us had finished we praised the lord and sang some more. We were asked to go to the front of the church as we weregoing to lay hand on our brothers and sisters and prayer for them. Julie asked for people to come forward for prayer and healing. At first she was asking for someone who had pain at the top of their right leg, a lady came forward and then she kept on going until nearly all the church was coming for ward for prayer and healing. I’d never prayed over people for healing like this before and felt scared. as i was praying inside i was screaming Lord come and help me.Show me that you can heal today as in bible times.I then started laid my hands on those who came forward and asked them what needed healing. As i prayed the Lord healed them, right there in front of my eyes i was seeing miracles happen. There was an amazing atmosphere full of Gods spirit just as i saw in my vision right at the beginning of the evening.

praying for healing

“I love you Lord thank you for allowing me to be part of this and to witness your greatness for myself first hand.”

After the church we all returned to our Lodge full of the Holy spirit and excited at what we’d witnessed. I really felt like one of Jesus’ disciples when they return to him and reported all the good work they had done in his name. (Luke 10. 17-23) Lord I praise your holy name.

Today has been a great experience and a learning curve.